Update from Anne herself

My mother wrote out an update for the blog, which i transcribed.

So this is what it takes to be the center of attention. Well i may be the center but what i see from here is a web of connection and love that is growing and deepening. It is sunday morning following another highly interrupted and sweat-drenched night, (my temps have been running 103-104 at night), possibly due to pneumonia but mostly the AL and the chemo. So they gave me a steroid to bring down my temperature and finally kill the four day headache i have had since the spinal tap. My temperature has been normal since then.
The terrors of chemo:
The first few days weren't so bad, then i started getting more nauseous. I'll share just one scene. Middle of the night, no balance, killer headache, nauseous, i got diarrhea from the chemo, Blaugh. Plus orange pee at the same time while puking, not another gross scene will ever be shared. Backtracking, i had very bad Thrush [in her throat], probably saved me time, since I couldnt swallow much and that's why i originally was admitted to the ER. It took away my voice completely, which is still coming back.
I think the ER doctor was a little shocked that my FP had done no blood work. I'd been to him three times in 11 days, it really didn't look typical. The bloodwork showed a pretty clear picture of acute leukemia, followed by a definite test three days later. To the first test my friends responded "oh no, we're sure it's not", but I think I'd known for weeks that I had something i could not heal. So i felt relief and immediate surrender to both the medical system and to spirit. I wondered why I had got it and it seemed very clear for me, for spiritual transformation which I had been praying for.
My days in the hospital in sebastopol were sweet, i was in a state of golden faith and turning my discomforts over to resolve old past deeds, to help world suffering, to pray for a healthier world. That got much harder on the chemo here, so much warfare, so many drugs, but the structure was in place. The heavy chemo ended yesterday, the lighter one today. So the next two weeks I will still have some symtoms [of the chemo], mostly to epithelial tissue area and digestive tract, I already have a rash and irritated eyes which should be resolved soon. My hair should be gone by the end of the week.
Later this week they give me a hormone to pump up my neutrophils. I supposedly leave here at the end of the month, with no cancer and a pretty functional immune system. The doctor just told me the results of the chromosome test, i am "normal". Lots of people have an acquired bad bit [in their DNA] with the AL on it that gives them information for the prognosis and treatment. The best part is i get to use my own cells for the stem cell marrow transplant.
So at the end of this month i go home for 2-4 weeks. After the next chemo, only four days, they harvest my stem cells. That stay will only be 3.5 weeks. When i come back in another 3-4 weeks, they give me a pretty tough chemo, to kill off the marrow. Then they do they transplant.
I am sure i am meant to live, and i am sure your prayers are needed.
Now the fun news, sunday, jan 20th was Dennis and my 9 month anniversary, he was sleeping here. I woke up in a radiant bliss. I feel clear, I wanted to propose to him. I got to sit with it a couple of hours, til he awoke and I wrote a beautiful proposal while he got washed and dressed. I have had so much resistance and defense to this relationship. I guess it took the reality of life and death in my faith to get over it all. He read it, wept, and accepted. He is simply the loveliest human being.
Thank you all for all of your love and concern, I love hearing from you by whatever form works for you. Phone is not good yet, though. All morning i've been crying about love.