It is Saturday morning, and I am more than halfway through the chemo. I still feel pretty good, though I can note some fatigue and spaciness. I may have the beginnings of mucositis, or a sinus infection, since they took me off the antibiotics I have been on for months when I came in. Hard to surrender to the doctors' control at this vulnerable time. I have fear cropping up, as I feel I am at the edge of cliff I am about to be pushed off. I try to just stay in the present. What a challenge! To allow this descent -and the possibility of "smooth sailing". It does seem that only divine protection will get me through this period of zero immunity.
The stem cell transplant will be Wednesday. They call that day 0, so the days leading up to it are minus numbers, a countdown.
They have wireless in the hospital now, so I can read your comments or emails.(annebocc@sonic.net). I did get a quiet room, but from my bed can only see another wing of the hospital. I can see a bit of the city from the window. I can visit the solarium which has a glorious view.
Love and thanks,
Anne
3 comments:
Hello Anne,
Good to hear your update. Keep the visualization of your perfect outcome. You remain in my thoughts and prayers are increased during this time. Love is the core of all healing, stay in your heart.
Love,
Sharesa
Dearest Anne,
P/S
Not only "Divine" but all of the love that you are and all of the love coming in from the universe and all who love you.....IT IS HUGE< YOU ARE LOVED AND ARE LOVE>
MIRACLES ARE BECAUSE YOU ARE>
I send you my love and prayers.
Cousin Linda
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